Alphabet Blog - L - Lost in time

A lot of things can be lost in time. Friends, feelings, memories, and even pain.

There are a couple of people whom I really cared about and I still do, it's just we don't talk anymore. Things were going great till they fell apart again. We were good friends, I told them everything, I like having them as my friends. Then one day, it seems everything is just not the same. From we would talk endlessly and we'll there for each other to we barely knew what's going on in each other's life. It hurts me for us to become like that. I still want to keep contact with them, but we talk less and less and in the end we drift apart. Occasionally when I came across a mutual friend, I would ask about them but it seems they're totally different from who I knew. I understand people come and go in our lives but it doesn't mean that it wouldn't hurt every single time. We didn't even say proper goodbye. It would've been bizarre that one day you will tell a friend "Farewell, we are not going to talk ever again." but again, it is without this indication of this friendship is coming to an end makes me broken in smithereens. How can you just be gone? How can you see me but ignore my existence? It may be a cliche but really I thought we were friends. Maybe I deserve an explanation on why you don't like me anymore or you've been hating on me all along but you just wouldn't say so? These people still cross my mind from time to time, I still miss them, my heart still aches when I relive all the memories in my head.

Then the magic of time comes along. The more I recall the more it seems to be alright ironically. The words I hold on to seems to lost its significance over time. Slowly but surely, the memories are never as whole as it was ever before. As a result, all the feelings are not as powerful as details are slipped from my mind. Reading through old texts, emails, anything related to them awakens poignant memories of old days, happier days. I want to remember them, even though it may just be who they were. They were a part of  my life, it would be stupid just to ignore their presence. They each taught me something during their stay in my life and I really appreciate that. Although our path of life may never cross again, I still wish you well. I'm sure you're shining light in another person's life just as you did in mine.

Alphabet Blog - K - Karma

Karma in the Buddhist and Hindu religions means the force produced by a person's actions in one of their lives which influences what happens to them in their future lives.

I've heard a lot about it and I think it's completely sensible. One did something bad and suffers from it or one did something good and something good will come along. That's why I think no one can get away from what they've done. They are going to go down at that certain point in their life, it may not be the time now but they definitely will.

Those who hurt others will eventually screw up themselves. Sometimes you don't have to be mad about the person who mistreated you, of course you're going to be upset and devastated, but being mad is not doing yourself any good, and that person would have his/her consequences of what he/she did. It may not directly related to what he/she had done to you, but of his/her actions, they are going to be affected by these and it shouldn't be something we worried about. Because the action of worrying could lead you down to something even more troubling for yourself, that's a type of karma also. It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there's nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized.

Everyone is responsible what they do, what they say and how they think. Since our lives are a sum total of the choices we have made; what we think determines what happens to us.

So, I will just let karma go after you while I keep living my life they way I want and the way I deserve.